This blog was made for random ramblings... and well, here is a post filled with them. Just things going through my mind lately.One of them - colored lighters.
Why exactly do they make lighters colored?
Why do they waste the time and the money making plastic film to cover white lighters?
What is the point in this?
It made me think - there are so many stupid things people do to the "little things in life"... and for what? The more I think about it, the more I realize that by improving all these little things in life, we are taking away joy from the bigger things in life - the things that should bring us joy.
But then again - it's the little things in life that make life here in the grand old US of A exciting, and we are (or once were) a nation that had the capabilities and resources and intelligence to improve or glamorize those little things.
But then again, we are such a damn visually stimulated and gratified nation, that things like a drawing your kid made, a sunset in your backyard, the labor, love and smell of a home cooked meal are all just mundane, just the norm. But, a glitzy, colored lighter, big plastic boobs, a cell phone that saves and plays music and accesses the internet is what really makes life worth living.
Just kinda pisses me off.
I am pissed off about my taste buds too.
I am not much of a "brown bag" lunch eater. If I have to slave away at work all day long, I'd like some exciting meal at 12 to break up my day.
But, I can't deny I am dirt poor right now. So, I have stocked up on canned soups, crackers, oatmeal and other cheap, filling meals to take to work.
So I am actually ending up eating more that I usually would eat, and probably better than usual and actually really filling up during the day at work. But, am I satisfied? Hell no.
Soup???? I mean, uck.
Stupid little taste buds. Kinda like colored lighters - I just had a hearty bowl of chicken and sausage gumbo, crackers and half a can of black olives and am TOTALLY unsatisfied.
Stupid, fat taste buds.
I just noticed, there is a scheduled outage on this website at 4:00pm. Just FYI.
Bailee had an "awwww" moment last night.... I told her to go get ready for bed and I'd be up in a second. No problem usually, she does as told and is really good about it. Well I came upstairs last night and see her on her bed all teary-eyed. Figured she was pissed about going to bed (we are slowly going to bed earlier and earlier to prepare for the 8:30pm bedtimes that will go into effect when she goes to school this year....) and I ask her what's wrong. She tried REALLY hard to choke back the tears and then busts out crying.
Apparently - the little boy on the TV lost his puppy.
And she was DEVASTATED.
So we hugged, I smiled, she bawled, I explained how those things can happen. It was a true "awwwww" moment that I loved.
So I got my results from the sleep study. I probably have to go back for another one. I don't have apnea (yeah!) but I do have Upper Airway Resistance Syndrome, which is why I moo.
Just have to change the way I sleep - must sleep on my stomach, as I usually do. Should get a mouth guard and sleep with those sleep right nose strips, and yeah - lose some weight. That's a given. But, I have to go back to see how sleepy I am during the day. Which means I have to go do a study that is conducted during the day where I have to take 20 minute naps in 2 hour intervals. They turn off all lights, TV, everything and I have to make myself take a nap. Test to see how quickly I fall asleep, how sleepy I am during the day, how easily I fall asleep and all that. They provide lunch and TV an internet so I am STOKED to be in my jammies all day and be forced to take naps. I mean how AWESOME! lol
So, no machine at night, but hopefully some simple modifications to how I sleep and my weight will help with the moo-ing. Otherwise, adenoids might have to come out or even explore my throat and see if surgery is needed. But, I doubt it'll happen - I just have VERY small nostrils and nasal passages and will probably moo the rest of my life. It's cool. Like I said, great sex deterrent! lol.
Back to my pshyco fears...
I REALLY want to take Bailee to Ski Roundtop to go sledding. I REALLY want to go sledding myself.
I am having panic attacks about it. Fo' real. Like afraid I will just tumble all the way down the hill and break my neck. So I am hoping I can find a way to go and have to stay with Bailee, lol. Hopefully the Prozac will kick in before then.
Speaking of Bailee - I am already planning her 5th birthday party! I usually start planning things months in advance and then rush at the very end to get it done.
I am throwing her a Circus themed party!!! My moms boyfriend has a literal Circus tent that he had put up this summer and threw two AWESOME parties under. One was a Cajun Party complete with Cajun inspired food, a BBQ smoker, a few kegs, a live DJ, a fire pit and about 50 people. It was incredible! Then a Halloween party and we decorated the tent and it was just awesome.
So, I have begged to throw Bailee a party under the big top! And of course, since Mike is one of the greatest guys around, he obliged and we are getting all excited for it! I am going to have typical carnival type games, a clown, popcorn, hot dogs and cotton candy, a PONY (or maybe some goats from my friend Jennifer's farm and make a little petting zoo) and face painting. I am SO excited!!!!!!! I want to really go all out since it'll be just a few weeks before she leaves her daycare in MD of 5 years and all her friends and moves on to WVA schools and neighborhood friends. It's going to be very sad and hard for us all when she leaves daycare and her friends there, because they are like family, and because it is very expensive to travel to MD - really to travel anywhere, so her time with them will be spuratic - as much as I can afford. It just really breaks my heart - so I want a full on celebration for her.
So, be on the lookout for your invitation this spring!
Well.... that is it for now. You all feelin me on any of this?!?!?!
OMG....
Did I just say "feelin me"??????
ugh.
4 comments:
Lizzie - I AM feeling you on this!! lol. Last year, our financial situation changed DRAMATICALLY and very suddenly. I went from having many luxuries to freaking out at the check out line at the grocery! But one good thing that has come from this is that I have realized how much all those "things" distract me. I don't spend so much time obsessing over this thing or that thing I want to buy - I don't have the choice to! I've learned to be content with less (much less), and it feels good. Sure, I can't wait until the stress of not being able to pay bills is gone, and I'd like to have some extra cash to go on a date with my hubby now and again, but I don't need the total overload of STUFF I had before.
You're such a smart lady ;)
Lizzie - Glad to hear you don't need the machine! Let me assure you that you are not the only one who lives paycheck to paycheck. I think it's hard on alot of people. You are doing great with what you have and I've learned over the years what is really important - God and family. It's important that you don't let Bailee get sucked in by the media and fake magazines who want to tell her that she's not good enough. Teach her to respect herself and others. Keep taking her to church and keep God in her life. Well, Rachel's calling me! Hopefully I'll see you in church!
Lizzie I had SO many thoughts running through my mind that I wanted to share, but your post was so long and random that now that I can finally make a comment, my brain is totally empty and I can't remember one thing! LOL! I just remember this post being super awesome and funny. You are the best!!!
Wow I just made myself sound like a cheap blond with no brain. I don't claim complete stupidity that often.
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